Let's Talk About My Absence

On 08/05/2015 at 11:23 PM by Nicoleb1989

So I've been on an extended absence. Alot has happened, not with my job per say but with my life in general. I was finally put back on regular work except I'm working 12 hrs Monday thru Thursday and 4 hrs on Sunday. Added up its about 52 hrs in a week. Now the good thing, I am not struggling above the current to survive. The bad thing, I don't get much free time and it doesn't help that my phone has a shit signal at both of my jobs locations. I've also been battling depression severely bad. Things haven't been good in my home space, for I feel overworked and tired yet the other person living here works 5 to 6 hours a day with only getting a whole 28hr at the end of a work week. Oh did I mention they won't barely help me clean or keep the apartment straightened. I want to cut a day back on my schedule however I have a fear in a few weeks I'll be living alone. I just can't keep up feeling like I'm a work camel and that someone else can coast on me and get by working a part time job when they should be at full time about now. We had the talk before the move but yet he doesn't job search nor is at least trying to get his GED. I barely get to game anymore and when I do its mostly on my 3DS. Hell I haven't touched Witcher 3 since June. I really wanna play it too but on my days off all I do is sit around wondering how I always end up giving 110% for someone to recieve 50% back. So I might go in and out, I might be here and gone the next but I'm gonna try to improve my attendance here. I miss yall and ur blogs.

KnightDriver

08/06/2015 at 03:55 AM

Get that coach potato in gear! It's get to work, or get out. That's how I see it.

Nicoleb1989

08/09/2015 at 11:36 PM

I've been trying, it's been a long hard road. The end results are looking bad....

08/10/2015 at 01:08 AM

Sorry to hear that. Good luck.

Blake Turner Staff Writer

08/06/2015 at 06:55 AM

That sucks. I mean you do what you have to, but if I were you I'd be looking for work that you can live on but won't kill you. You can't do that every week for the rest of your life.

Good to see you back though, and I hope things improve for you.

08/09/2015 at 11:39 PM

I really wish I could but until I feel safe to do so I'm gonna have to stick with this. Since Dan isn't working alot I'm gonna have to make up the lacking part so we're stable. Once I can though, I will.

mothman

08/06/2015 at 10:40 AM

Good to hear from you but don't push yourself too hard. Getting lots of hours is no substitute for your health.

08/09/2015 at 11:41 PM

I know but right now I have to. It's keeping the apartment afloat and I got two cat kiddos to take care of.

Matt Snee Staff Writer

08/06/2015 at 03:19 PM

we miss you too!!! hope all is well.

08/09/2015 at 11:42 PM

Thank you Snee, things aren't the best but I'm hoping in a few weeks things will improve!

goaztecs

08/06/2015 at 03:23 PM

I'm sorry to read about your current situation and the only thing I can say is you have to figure out what is best for you. Your workload is crazy, and what is worse is that when you come home there is more work for you to do.

08/10/2015 at 02:40 PM

Sadly what's best for me is also another thing that could introduce more hell in my life which is to live alone. I'd still have to work a crap ton to make it work.

Super Step Contributing Writer

08/06/2015 at 11:33 PM

Well you've always seemed like one of the kindest, most hard working and patient person, so either dude gets with the job search and some cleaning/gets his GED or things gotta change.

I can't really bash someone else too much for part time work, since I've been unemployed the last couple months and know how hard job search can be, but the least he could do is help around the house. I'm pretty open to helping the people I live with until something else takes up my free time and I think you have to be gracious enough to relaize someone is doing you a favor and do it back.

08/10/2015 at 02:48 PM

Joe I can say firmly that you put in effort. You search and keep going. He hasn't even looked for another job, I get ignored if I bring it up. I know nob searching can be for sure, I was doing it when my job hours dried up. However effort must be put in and he for sure isn't putting in any. He rarely ever cleans and most of time if he does, it's because he sees me doing it. Thank you Joe, I appreciate that, I do my best to be a good person. I feel bad for bitching about it but I had to blow some steam.

Ranger1

08/07/2015 at 11:21 AM

I'll send you a PM tomorrow after work. Been in your shoes, and it's no picnic.

08/10/2015 at 02:50 PM

It definitely hasn't been fun, I've regretted my choice since May because I noticed after 2 months things probably aren't going to go well. I still got 7 more to go. Cross your fingers I can make it please :(

PixlBit