It's official. I am addicted to Facebook. Specifically, reading and posting about politics. Which ... is the worst way to be addicted to Facebook. Also the least satisfying. And most contentious.
I have it blocked outside of Incognito on Chrome ... but I decided to modify my website blocker to allow Incognito and ... well I just argued with my older brother about abortion and he's the one buying my Christmas gifts this year. So now I'm just being impractical.
Thing is, I am subscribed to soooooooooooooooooooooooo many news and politics sites and have more saved articles on there than unfinished Steam games. I need help. Come on, Tami. You're basically the only Pixpal I allow on my Facebook. You gotta stop me (no, that is not an invite to the rest of you to add me on FB; quite the opposite in fact).
I hope I'm not bringing Facebok here in any way. This is my refuge from speaking with people I know. I come here to avoid others and really at this point myself on that site and just vent anonymously and talk about entertainment. To be honest, while I'm all for legal action being taken against legit psychopathic trolling where there's tangible harm being done to the person on the other end, I think there's something to be said for anonymous venting. Lack of privacy and having an archive of every bad thing a person has ever done is kind of evil in a lot of ways. Sometimes it's better to just let people say horrible things to get some anger out and let it go.
I remember when I was bored at home in my teen years I did pretty much have a stereotypical troll life. I went on ultimate-guitar forums throwing out crazy ideas and diatribes just to guage reactions. I never did anything ban-worthy or legitimately harmful, but certainly said some stupid shit. Sometimes it was self-aware, sometimes it wasn't, but it was nice to just let loose and see what stuck to the wall without the nagging feeling someone would find out what moronic things I'd said later and decide not to hire a person who "was tired of all the hate towards cocaine and loved Pauly Shore." I'm also a big advocate of comedians in clubs being allowed to say ANYTHING they want, barring actual violent threats towards audience members. Having an outlet for rage is important for peace in my view.
Anyway, I beat GTA V recently. It gave me my first "games as art" experience when I became seriously uncomfortable shooting at cops and playing the robber. That's a scene I'd have yawned at in a theater, but that hit me because I was controlling it. That is something only a video game can do. From there, especially after Trevor showed up, the game reverted to its cartoony, satirical roots and I was laughing at the dark humor through to the end. In a sick way, I ended up caring for the messed up trio you control, but only becuase the people they're shooting at are depicted as worse than they are. I totally get where mothman, Casey and others are coming from with not enjoying or endorsing these games, but please understand that for me these games have always been R-rated road runner cartoons, just with digitized humanoid figures instead of animals. I've never witnessed actual shootings and I hope I never do. But it's a series that trolls our culture in ways it needs to be trolled. It has inspired me to be less like Jimmy, the fat lazy son of Michael who literally has entitled tattooed on his neck and never leaves his video game ready bedroom ... by playing GTA V for hours in my bedroom and saying to myself "at least I'm not that kid." It also lets us be the trolls we'd never be in real life and there's something to be said for that.
After all that's happened recently, controllers not guns say I. Harmless trolling not actual violence and abuse say I.
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