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 On 03/08/2016 at 12:50 PM by Blake Turner See More From This User » |
It's been nearly 2 years since I left college. It's been over a year since I moved out from renting with my friend, and it's been nearly a year since I had to leave my job due to allergies. Since then, I honestly feel like I've achieved nothing.
Every time I start to do anything I just lose interest and don't see what the point is. Writing, reading, music projects... I don't feel creatively inspired by anything, and I feel like I'm in a rut where leaving the fucking house is a struggle. That could partially be because it takes half an hour to drive anywhere, or because for whatever reason since I left college I find talking to people really draining and upsetting. I don't want to do it.
I don't really want to do anything honestly. I know I have to, just right now I can't for whatever. That's on me.
Sorry for being really depressing. I have played some games. I've been playing Persona 4 because it's the best JRPG ever made. I've also been playing Just Cause 3. And I bought the Midna Wolf Amiibo pack of Twilight Princess because Matt forced my hand.
Other than that, the days have been a blur, and I really feel like I need to get out of this rut soon. Hopefully my classes at the moment will actually fucking do something for me career-wise. If I can even finish those.
I think you should continue taking classes. Trust me, it's better to have a degree than not, no matter what the short term drawbacks are.
Ah, you'll come out of it. I get in ruts too sometimes, but they always seem to end. And then new ruts come. It's great!
Sorry, that wolf amiibo is just too cool man. I'll bet you're glad you bought it....
Indeed it is. And thanks. I'll definitely keep at the course. I know it will be worth it in the long run, but short term just bleh. I don't want to be around people if at all possible at the moment.
Keep your head up man. I think we all go through this, and after you get through it, you come out more focused on what you want.
I hope so. Thanks for the kind words.
I completely understand. I remember when I was actually attending college to become a teacher. I ended up missing my final exams of the last semester I did and I failed 2 of the 4 courses. I was soo miserable and I couldn't for the life of my find a reason to continue. I also felt embarrassed over it, I'm typically a good student. I never went back. I ended up with a CNA instead and while it doesn't fix it I feel like I at least am moving in some direction. This will pass, you will get out of your rut. It just takes time.
Hey depression is a nasty thing. Luckily I can now deal with it without medication but I've been where you are before. I'm still not a big fan of people unless I have something in common with them like games or music.
You might want to look into whether this is something medical. Like I said depression is a nasty thing unless it's situational and in that case it may sort itself out in time.
Was gonna say the same, sounds like you need to speak with a professional.
My anxiety was AWFUL when I was doing my thesis and it still flares up. I'm not medicated for it atm, but I did get a lot of help with changing my mindset speaking with a therapist, and most universities have free mental health help.
I feel like I'm in a rut too. One that's lasted a long time. It's tough to try and get yourself out of it. I'm still trying. Mainly I'm just working on better health right now. I feel like that's the foundation for any attempt at change.
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