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 On 02/15/2014 at 09:38 PM by Coolsetzer See More From This User » |
I didn't post anything yesterday for a reason. It's a holiday for couples, and I didn't want to bother anyone with my whining and complaining. Yes, this is one of THOSE blogs. I urge you, please don't read if you don't want your day ruined with my pathetic tale of lost loves and broken hearts. That being said, I'm not a woman hater or anything. I just want to share why it is so hard for me on this particular day.
I dislike this holiday. It's a constant reminder of why being single sucks. Being alone isn't so bad - it's the constant commercialism that I don't like. Valentines Day is the reason why the term "Hallmark Holiday" came into being. Ads for chocolate, flowers, and jewelery bombard the airwaves for two or three weeks straight. You can't even go to the store without seeing red everywhere. I am so glad that annoyance is over. The day wasn't all that bad for me, though. Even though I caught a cold and spent the majority of the day in bed.
I think that my bad experiences with it also affect me. After my divorce, I fell deeply in love with a girl I had dated. Stupid me. Not only did she steal my heart, but she eventually tore my heart out. I confessed to her on a Valentines Day. Had bought her flowers and a card as well. But it didn't matter to her. Nothing I did or said mattered to her after she met that guy. After a couple more attempts of trying to reach her, we ended our friendship on bad terms... They probably have a family by now, and it's really hard for me to let her go. I feel like she was the one that got away, and I think about her every day, even though it's been two years already. I'm pretty sure that I'll never love anyone like that again.
I tried last year with another girl as well. I see now that I wasn't ready. We had a really nice time on our date, but after I went back to school, one of her "high school friends" came back into town. She dumped me for him. After they broke up a few months later, I tried with her again, but by then, she didn't even want me anymore. We still talk as friends sometimes, but she's still not interested in having a relationship with me.
I'm just sick of stupid bitches. I didn't even care to try this time, even though there a couple I like. It's just really hard to trust again. Why talk to someone if they're only going to break things off when something better comes along? It happens time and again. Or better yet, every time I try to talk to someone on a dating site, I get ignored. I'm just going to go ahead and delete my profile, because it's been almost six months now, and I haven't even had a date from there.
To sum it up, I give up. It's just not worth the heartache anymore.
Well, as Jay Z says, 99 problems comprised exclusively of stupid bitches.
Sorry, man. I actually had a date from online last weekend, but she's in Dallas, so basically none of my friends can hang out cause they're with their dates. I bought candy, some light bulbs, and some games, though.
hey man, don't give up hope yet. I've had some bad experiences, and I haven't dated for a while, but someday I figure I'll get back on that horse. Love is hard, but you never know when it'll find you.
At least you got to date women. I have a disability that keeps me from driving, so I don't have very many opportunities to get out much at all. I've gotten used to it, but it can get discouraging sometimes.
I don't think you should give up. I had a bad experience in the past, and shortly after when I thought I had enough confidence it struck me harder and it indicated that I just wasn't ready yet. I took my time, and eventually recovered. I can say that I've matured quite a lot since then. I had a lot of anger issues towards humans in general, but it's about overcoming that, and seeing that a lot of humans around you don't have the same level of confidence that you have, and it's about conquering their attention without any side intent. You are in control. You know yourself better than they do themselves. You conquer all until you find someone that can equally conquer all... with you.
My buddy did this grand day for his girl on Valentines Day and she totally didn't respond. In her card to him she called him her "friend" instead of "lover". Why he tries with her I have no idea. It's pretty clear she isn't interested in anything serious. If it ain't workin', go find another. That's what I say.
I think being single is great during V-day. I think to myself, "look at all the crap I don't have to put up with". I celebrated it once (back in '00) and hadn't did it again. Valentine's day annoys me and, thank goodness, it also annoys my wife. 
Um, thanks everybody? lol I'm usually not that moody, I swear! It just really puts me in a funk that is hard to get out of. I have learned that I don't need anyone to make me happy, so at least that's something. I just hate it when you like and care about somebody, and they don't even reciprocate. Those kind of people aren't even worth my time anymore.
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