My family and I are on a budget, and within it, everybody gets a little monthly spending money. My wife buys typical wifely things like clothes, jewelry, stuff like that. The kids don't get a whole lot, but they spend it on kid stuff. Candy, a toy, whatever. I am also fairly predictable in my own spending habits. I almost always buy the same thing: Video Games.
That’s probably pretty normal for a gamer right? I mean that’s what we do, we buy and play games. Here’s the thing though, I’ve got an EPIC backlog that has games spanning all the way back to PS1 titles. I don’t need any more games. I can’t play any more games. If I didn’t have to work, I’m pretty sure I could spend the rest of this year playing games from sunrise to sunset and still have left over games, but I keep buying them. I just dropped 40 bucks on Amazon on copies of Eternal Sonata, Enslaved, and Vanquish. All worthy titles to be sure, but I bought Batman: Arkham City, Deus Ex: Human Revolution, Both Record of Agarest War titles (don’t judge me. They were crazy cheap and, boobies aside, the game looks pretty interesting) *ahem* The World Ends with You, and the Wii version of Resident Evil 4, within the last 2 or 3 months. I was also given a copy of The Legend of Zelda: Skyward Sword for Christmas. You know how many of them I’ve played? Zero. And on top of all this, I’m probably still going to pick up Tales of the Abyss for my 3ds when it launches, even though I know I should just wait for a price drop.
After picking those up, I remembered a conversation with the rest of the PixlBit gents that were a part of the PixlTalk podcast we recorded last night, and figured I’d check for copies of Baten Kaitos and Skies of Arcadia for Game Cube. That got me thinking about the other Game Cube games I want to pick up, like Paper Mario and the 1000 year door, Viewtiful Joe and Eternal Darkness. I actually started searching for them before I had a moment of clarity: I’m being completely ridiculous.
Or am I?
I mean, maybe this just means I’m a collector as well as a gamer? It’s possible, but then again, am I collecting or hoarding? Am I really gaining any satisfaction out of grabbing all these games that I could potentially fall in love with but may never have the time to actually play? Why am I really doing this? What’s the motivation?
So I thought about this. Seriously. It may sound crazy, but I honestly sat there and tried to really drill down to what it is that makes me compulsively buy this stuff. It’s partially love for my hobby, which is normal, but there’s this cause for my obsession that worries me. This extra motivation that practically makes me click the mouse when I have the means to do so. Fear.
I worry that, should I wait, I'll miss out on the chance to own a valuable game. It could easily become impossible to track down in good condition without paying the worth of a human appendage to acquire. I’ve seen it happen. I actually smiled like crazy when my first printing of Symphony of the Night, and my in box copies of FF Legends and Adventure 1-3 was worth a small fortune. I love the fact that I own an in box Radiant Historia. It’s exciting to know you own something important and valuable, but I would NEVER pay the outrageous asking price for a lot of these rarer games.
I don’t want to miss out either. My lack of a bottomless wallet and my generally frugal nature will forever keep me from dropping my hard earned dollars down on a Dreamcast and the better version of Skies of Arcadia. I’ll never own a Saturn and play the superior version of Grandia despite my love of the game. I’m never going to experience Lunar on Its original platform, which I would love to do even though I enjoy the Working Designs version better. I’ll never play anything on the Sega CD like Kojima’s Snatcher even though that game looks cool as hell. I’m going to miss out on this stuff, and I do not want to miss out on anything else.
So what do you think? am I a gamer, or a collector, or just plain bat crap crazy?
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